"Without"
My flaws are numbered as the grains of sand
That line the shores of misery and doubt;
Self-loathing is the rope that binds my hands,
And self-distrust assures that I'm without.
Perhaps I trusted more than words conveyed,
Or, believed your words, instead of your intent –
I didn't see the clever game you played,
I didn't realize I'd soon lose again.
The promises of men are very cheap,
Like gentle kisses, lies fall from your lips.
I swear I heard you swear you'd never leave;
In swearing thus, I marked your greatest fib.
The day is slowly fading into night,
In bleakest dark, I mourn the failing light.
"Goodbye"
Before I say goodbye,
I'll linger just a while,
Once more I'll hear your laughter,
And I'll drink in every smile.
Before I say goodbye,
I'll think on every word;
The lawlessness that fueled my soul,
Those moments, I'll preserve.
Before I say goodbye
I'll remember your embrace;
I won't touch you, though I'll want to,
Only memorize your face.
Because goodbye means I can't go
Wherever you are going;
Someone else will share your life and
I'll be forced to live not knowing.
And when you finally say goodbye
I promise I won't cry,
But with every step you take away
Inside, my love, I'll die.